really, now.

there is no picture that can quite summarize this entry, because this entry is just me and I mean every single thing said no matter how dumb and psychotic I sound.

you have no idea how much I want this person. how important he is to me. how curious I am to every single little fact about him. I literally can’t take it, the fact that he is on the other side of the world and lives a completely, COMPLETELY different life grates on my nerves every second. I want to know him and be with him so much that I have no other explanation for this madness than the fact that I might be a mental case. The chances of us ever meeting is one in a billion. and when I think about it like that, it makes my heart hurt even more, because I know the chances of this dream ever coming true becomes smaller and smaller.

but I think that in everything I say and do there is a part of you there, and even though you and I will probably never meet, I am absolutely entranced by you, and even though this dream is so unbelievably stubborn and unreasonable, I am in love with you.